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life and a pleasant dream

This bitch beat Satan in her sleep last night. LolI had one of the more pleasant dreams life will grant me occasionally last night. Though I woke up to toddlers running and screaming above my head, so I'd much rather go back to sleep and tell Satan he ain't shit.The next video will be availa...

casual birthday blog

Today I ordered a new dress for myself. After browsing the entire sale section on EMP I settled on this dress and this pair of earrings that match Sai. They look exactly alike, well, maybe a little less purple and bright.Today is my birthday, cause some of you have asked. The one day of the year whe...

Midnight Café

A calming relaxation video in which you can enjoy lots of my voice, the night time ambience and various other ASMR sounds sprinkled in between. Shiki reference intentional. I'm thinking about referencing this cafe/story/character in a future shiki video. As you may or may not know, in the anime ...

Scalp Massage // Sleep Induction

I love when patreon asks me questions like "Why do you create?" at the start of each post. Umm, cause I want a nice life kthx. This video is closer to simulating a nice life for you, though. I played with the background a little and tweaked the color to create one of my favorite combinations...

stressed but managing

First of all, thank you for your support this month. My last posts were finished rather hastily and I forgot to give my thanks and appreciation. I was very busy making a cute vegetarian café for Alice sim, and failing at such because the mod that was supposed to fix the thing that EA broke, broke m...

White Pill Black Pill

At last, after days of work and nights of just rendering, this much looked forward to gem is finished! Everyone who guessed bartender, bar or club roleplay in my giveaway has received a download link so check your private messages!Home sweet home. Or not? In this roleplay you just needed to get out ...

overload

Today I finished the first take of my upcoming mystery video. I also promptly realized why I haven't felt like filming anything lately. I still tried today and my brain is so overloaded I'm struggling to function. I'm writing because writing helps me process, along with playing games. In...

Hypnosis for a Healthy Body and Mind

There it is, finally. Been working on this the past days and even though my neighbor turned his TV on halfway through (that bastard... it was 2AM!) it wasn't as ridiculously loud this time. Let go and let me help you fix your habits with this relaxing hypnosis roleplay!*[no music]Enjoy this unti...

the pursuit of ambience

The other day I took my equipment out on a "field trip". It was a very windy day and I wanted to see if I could capture the sound of the wind somehow. Surprisingly, the outside was absolutely inhospitable that day - and my recorder thought so, too. The result was as expected (27 minutes of m...

Witchy Sleep Treatment

Well............ I searched "asmr fire" to see if my video made it anywhere in the search results and stumbled upon other people's "witchy" ASMR... And I was like... [my actual real reaction] ... [my second actual real reaction] ... and I went on to do this. So here you go, my co...

Sounds of the Night

Look at you, getting lucky again with a beautiful girl in a romantic roleplay!I originally just meant to feature the sounds that make me happy to listen to from my window, something I used to do a lot for years and years. This is one of the things that kept me sane and, I dare say, alive. Ever since...

OUTTAKES I'll Set You On Fire

Hilarious outtakes from the last vid. I hope this makes you laugh ;)

social media thoughts

I was introduced to social media by a friend in school, one of the few people who didn't think I was an attention-seeking nut job, back in 2005 when it was still sorta in its one inch fetus stages. She showed me a site where people could make profiles and sing into their home phones, yes it was ...

I'll set you on fire.

Tingles galore! Wow, the layered sound effects of fire burning, flickering, crackling, sizzling, the intense binauralness of ... everything ... I guarantee you will feel toasty listening to this. I'm burning your energy blocks with intention and reenergizing you using the energy of the element f...

I See You.

Chicken soup for social rejects. At a house party, a really cool seeming girl wants to talk to you. She invites you to hang out for a little while. You warm up pretty quickly as you share some drinks, food, games and have a cozy, fun time. She makes you feel like you belong. Not only does she see yo...

time to rest

Just in time for the weekend, my body has decided for me that I'm done working, or at least I won't be in front of the camera for another video this week. The overload is getting pretty bad. This morning I did so much as start laundry and eat breakfast and just collapsed. The good news is, a...

disability rant

As I write this, I just finished a cup of morning tea (rare treat these days, due to obvious reasons, coffee is my go to) and I'm waiting for a milk mixture to cool down just slightly so that it won't upset the yeast. I was rudely awoken by a text saying I can no longer use my data plan unti...

my weird neighbors

This post is mostly for your entertainment. People are weird. Let's have a nice cozy chat about just how weird they can be - I'm curious to hear your stories, too!As you probably know, I live in an apartment complex. That means, while I like to think I live by myself in my own bubble, in rea...

★Party For Two★ #7

The thumbnail accurately sums up how I feel about hypothetical sex with Virgos based off what the book said. XDIn this video I feel like you can tell how I've grown into my specific style of ASMR videos. Watching myself (with Jack over a third coffee right now), I look more relaxed and natural a...

❤️ Loving Pampering ❤️

I'm ending the month of love with a roleplay full of love...In case you were wondering, I make these roleplays thinking about Jack, otherwise I would have a hard time coming up with anything to say or do... That's why occasionally I get horny and talk about taking the viewer to bed. This did...

Progressive Muscle Relaxation - Sleep Induction

Nap time for you and me!I made you a video to actively relax your body while your mind will obediently follow along as you focus on the treatment. Slow fading defocused lights will slow down your thoughts while I lavish you with personal attention and an array of tingly sounds. Your comfort is my to...

the birth of asmr soundscapes

*insert super mario level cleared sound effect here*I figured out the ultimate immersion combination for me personally. The secret is in the vagueness.As I've mentioned previously, creating realistic videos is very difficult with the limitations being background, acoustics, camera and microphone...

OUTTAKES The Epic Chocolate Spa

And I'm back to brighten your day lol

is it spring yet?

As winter is refusing to leave like a freeloading druggie "friend", I'm struggling with my depression and tiredness (or an early case of spring fever?) ... Whatever the case, I've been lacking motivation to do tedious things like, get out of bed, make food or shower. I've been sl...

🍫 THE 🍫 EPIC 🍫 CHOCOLATE 🍫 SPA 🍫

Don't judge my thumbnail I was going for something more classy but I forgot to take a photo 😭This is it. This is my baby. It's not perfect but I worked so hard omg... I remember the pain from sitting up too long... And of course, no matter how much work I put into a video, there's alw...

★Party For Two★ #6

Happy weekend guys! Just wanted to post this because, well, it's a done video. It finished rendering Thursday night as I was already off work so I waited a little while. As you requested with your votes, I'm reading Pisces this time, along with making cocktails - yay liquid sounds - cracking...

FAQ

Frequently asked questions, just so I have something to refer people to.⛤ What is your name? Ally⛤ But I read somewhere- Doesn't matter⛤ Why do you not want people to use your birth name? It triggers my PTSD⛤ Where are you from? Germany⛤ What's your accent? Idk, it varies⛤ How ol...

🍸 Getting Ready For A Night Out 🍸

This super long relaxing roleplay is more female oriented, but I hope y'all enjoy the various brushing sounds plus so much more. We have drinks while I do your makeup, fix your outfit and hair and get us ready for some night life action.Coincidentally, I'm getting ready to film another one r...

first whiff of spring air

I went out last night. I noticed that when I'm most miserable and restless, the same types of processes tend to help. They have acronyms now. VWS: vent, walk, shower. BFS: bath, food, sex. I'm sure there are more, these are just the most common ones I typically do in that order.It was worth ...

limitations

My first week of my new schedule is over. I must say I barely survived it. Working this much on top of being awake and responsive all day really took it out of me. Thoroughly exhausted. This is not supposed to sound like aww poor me, this is me trying to come to terms with what I can and cannot do. ...